I was in my car listening to K-Love and Lauren Daigle’s new song, You Say comes on. If you haven’t heard it, listen to it. It is a beautiful song. While listening to that song, I began to think about all the ways I wasn’t applying what the Lord thinks about me in my life.
Listening to those words began to stir up an emotion in me, that caused me to think about how I do things sometimes expecting some type of reward or validation for doing the things I do. I saw a post that T.D. Jakes posted about his daughter Sarah, and it almost brought me to tears, reading how a father was wishing his daughter a happy birthday.
I began to think how a father is so important in his daughter’s life that it made me thank the Lord for my husband being the father he is in my kid’s life. Even though, I didn’t have my father present in my life, I want better for my kids.
Not hearing certain words from those you love, can oftentimes play tricks on me. I begin to get upset and feel unappreciated, even doing the tasks that I usually do with no problem, start to become aproblem. Every little thing becomes an issue, but it’s nothing my family did. It’s the mind games the enemy likes to play. It’s trying to make me believe that everything I do is not enough.
I mean, yes it’s nice to be recognized, but I have to remember that I am not always going to feel appreciated, loved, or even happy. Feelings change from one moment to the next, but to remember how the Lord feels about me is really the only validation I need. Though it be hard at times, it’s still something I need to remember.
The song says:
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing You say I am strong when I think
I am weak You say I am held when I am falling short When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours And
I believe (I), oh I believe
(I)What You say of me (I)I believe
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You, I find my worth, in You I find my identity
Just reading those words sends a chill through my body and starts to bring up emotions. I mean, how powerful are those words? We may not seem like anything to people around us. Even the ones we love don’t always feel that great about us, but to have a heavenly Father love us unconditionally.
That is just amazing. The other day, when I was talking to God about how I want things to be, he reminded me:
I never left you
I will never put you on the back-burner
But a relationship goes both ways
You have to want it
I know you have things going on that are causing you to spend time doing other things and you feel exhausted, but in the same way, you set an alarm clock and wake up is the same thing you have to do with me if you want a deeper relationship
Things don’t change unless you change them
You are going to have to make a choice, a sacrifice
What you get in return will be so much greater
Think of it as an exchange, what you want to happen vs what is happening. Instead of thinking someone needs to reach out to me all the time, I can channel the feelings into someone else. I can tell my kids how much I love and appreciate them when I am not feeling it.
I can tell my husband how much of a hard worker he’s been for our family when I need some extra love from him. I can call up a friend or family member and ask them out to lunch when I just need to talk and share what’s on my heart instead of wallowing in self pity.
What are some ways you talk yourself out of a funk when you start to get in a mood you can’t shake? Let me know in the comments, I would love to connect with you.