If you remember my last post, I was going through a tough time. To be honest, it took me a little over a week to actually get over it and move forward. A whole 7 days went by before I and that other person actually talked and it was still really bothering me after we started talking.
I was still holding a grudge, I was still answering in a snobby way, I was still just confused about the whole situation and it took a dream to help me let it go. A few nights had passed by before I actually had the dream and it was the wake-up call I needed. Ain’t that just like God…to give us what we need?! I mean…Lord!!
So, in my dream I was fighting… who would have thought huh?! I felt like I was in a game trying to defeat the big bad enemy at the end. Every time I was able to get past one obstacle, I was faced with another one right after it.
That went on for a little while until I saw myself at the church I grew up in. I saw a few familiar faces and was so exhausted from fighting that I put my head down on a table because I felt so exhausted.
While my head was down, a voice that was familiar to me walked over to me and said, “the Lord told me to tell you, sorry for talking to you, if you let this go, I can give you a word!”
Yeah?! That’s how I felt too. In other words, sorry for bursting your bubble, but you’re not going to figure this out. If you let this go and allow me back in, I can help you move forward. As soon as those words were said to me, I started crying…like a hard cry, so hard I woke up because I was sobbing so hard in my dream.
After I woke up, I began to think about what that meant. I am the type of person that needs to understand what happened in order to move on. Because I was unable to get an understanding of the situation that was blown out of proportion, I was unable to move past it, so it still lingered in my spirit. I was also so consumed with trying to figure out what the underlying issue was that, that became my focus.
I was unable to concentrate on anything else because I allowed this situation to take over my thoughts. Ecclesiastes 11:5 says, “as you do not know what is the way of the wind, Or how the bones grow in the womb of her who is with child, So you do not know the works of God who makes everything.
There are going to be things in my life that aren’t going to make sense, but I can’t allow them to become distractions, because that’s what they are. I had to let go of the fact that I was not getting the answer I was seeking. God wanted me to stop allowing this to affect my spirit.
So, I’ve accepted the fact that it was just the enemy coming in trying to cause division. Once I came to terms with that, I was alright. I was able to let it go and go back to myself before this happened. What I learned in all of this is that trials are going to come, they are going to try and knock us down and they will if we let them.
But, if we sit and dwell on the negative, it will eat at us and cause us to stay in a place that God didn’t intend for us to be. Keeping Him at the center and allowing Him to mold, shape, and refine us is key to being able to get back up after we’ve been knocked down.
Don’t let the enemy win…forgive, let go, and move forward even if you don’t understand why things are happening. It may just be God trying to get our attention to spend some time with Him.