These past few weeks have been, to say the least, trying. If you’ve read my last few blogs you know
that the Lord told me He was going to make me uncomfortable…well, it’s happening.
The crazy thing is, I’ve been expecting it. So, every time a situation comes up, I ask myself, “am I
uncomfortable?” This situation, right now, is totally making me uncomfortable because it’s
causing me to question my parenting.
Am I doing right by my kid’s?! Am I setting a good example?! Is there something in me that is
showing up in them that’s causing this friction that I feel?!
Because this is going on, I’ve been spending more time in prayer, being silent to make sure I’m
listening, and even praying for more patience as I go through because it’s got me on edge.
I need to be filled up if I want to defeat this head on. Even though every part of me wants to be
stubborn and give off the same energy I’m getting. I must lead by example, not expect them to act
differently because I’m telling them to.
Parenting a child who feels they deserve answers to everything is causing me to get worn down. I
no longer feel the need to constantly explain why I say or do things the way I do, especially when
this child feels like they aren’t doing anything wrong.
It’s hard out here for a mom of teenagers girls!! I wanna run away all the time. Pray for me y’all.
The sad thing is, I think they are winning. It’s one of me, and 3 of them…THREE!!
I’m losing my mind.
I’m constantly repeating myself. They try to act like they are asking me a question about what I
just said, but I know they are just trying not to do what I just told them to do.
Ok, enough about them… I know all of this is going to work for my good. There’s a reason I’m
going through this and in the end I will come out stronger. I’m really trying to have a positive
outlook on this because I know how I respond determines my outcome.
I can’t go into this with a negative mindset. I have to remember that no matter how much I’m
being pushed away. I need to love harder. When I feel like they don’t want to talk to me, keep
talking to them. When they don’t want to be around me, embrace them anyway.
I won’t allow the enemy to stop me from doing my job as a mother. These are my children and no
matter how mad or upset or frustrated I get with them, I am still their mother. Whatever mind
games the enemy is trying to play, it won’t work here.
One thing I do know, is that in my frustration, I can always go to the Lord. He always gives me
insight. As I’m asking Him what is going on and what to do, he tells me:
It’s testing your patience because it’s part of your ministry.
Your first ministry is your home
There, you’ll experience a lot of testing because it causes you to look to Me
You want better for your family
You pray for protection for your kids
You want generational curses broken
You see them growing up in different times
All these scenarios require you to come to Me
This next season you’re going into requires complete surrender
You can no longer go off of what you think you know
This is new territory
You grow in the trying times, not when everything is going fine
You become stronger when you feel weak because I am your strength
The times when you feel alone, I am closer to you than you think
I’ve got your back
It’s all part of the process
Will this be the end, of course not… will I learn how to deal with it when it comes time for me to
deal with it again…definitely. I was built for this. The Lord already equipped me to deal with this
situation. Instead of retreating and acting like I don’t know what to do, I rely on my Father. He
always come through.
